Oh Lord, it's been a long road, I and Thou. At least it seems that way. I have felt Your hand on me since before I knew what it meant to be kept. Your love has been my life. Still, I am tired. Still, I fee alone at times, not knowing which way to turn. I don't think You have abandoned me, but where is Your voice? Where is Your right hand to hold me firm? The wind blows and I am laid low.
i know I'm supposed to be praying for others, but right now I need help to stand fast. I believe in You oh God, but now I need to trust You, to change everything about my actions and behavior to reflect Your love and hope and joy and peace. To do that I need to FEEL You, have the closeness of Your presence in my every breath. Do not hold Yourself far off. Breath the breath of life into me. Resuscitate my shattered dreams. Mend my broken heart. Replenish my spent strength. Help my unbelief.
I know You can, Yes Lord. I know You will, yes Lord. Fight my battles if I just keep still. Lord be a fence all around me every day.
So be it.
When you wake up at 4am, pray all the prayers that don't come to the surface in daylight